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Name: Michelle
Birthday: 12/10/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Being one with the wind in a field full of daisies, clouds above and a half cracked smile. Hanging out every night to watch the sun go down, and watching it rise again in the morning.
Expertise: Conversating with the stars.
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Sparklett1988
AIM:  yous a heifer
Member Since:
3/17/2003
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I've been on xanga for 4 years now, officially.
Something told me to get back with it. <3
Go to my first post through my posting calendar. Read. Compare. Contrast. Laugh.
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| I didn't think I could come back to this. I thought maybe I have moved on, and I couldn't find the place in my life to do this again. But here I am, all 18 years of me.
Well I don't know what happened to that last post I put up. It didn't say anything about where I stood in my life. I guess it was just the point of the post that counted.
Yes, I'm an adult now. No jailbait. I'm just still a kid... whose played the lottery and signs her own permission slips.
Well, my life has changed almost entirely. There's no telling what the future holds anymore. Not like that was possible to begin with. Some people over estimate the body. We take things for granted every day of our every life. That's the thing: We only have one life. Never thought I'd be holding on to what I have now. Always thought it would be the same... but it's not. God no, it's not. Things have changed. You don't realize how they could change, until it all does. And you're fighting. You're fighting every day of your life. There's people in your life you never DREAMED of letting go. But what happens when you still have them physically and not emotionally? I never thought it would be this way.
I don't know how it got this way.
Deep down, I feel as if I'm still the same girl who writes in her xanga. I feel the notion when I type. It's the same from when I started. It was 4 years ago. And I still feel the same. But everything else has changed. I'm telling you to save me from a world that turns until the outter edges become black and darken out the sun. There's no end. I stand in the fast lane and the cars don't swerve and seem to notice I stand there. All I see is the blurred vision of lights and sounds. I am not impacted, just motionless; a heavy air in which a presence hums upon, but cannot be seen. Everything changes, yet I stand unchanged.
I think the very start of this nature started when time began. When you thought God existed.
It's just an idea...
But as for me, speaking not of creation, but of timelyness, April 2006 was a hard time for me. Maybe that triggered something in the stars, of our fortunetellers. Things aren't always fortunate. Things probably happen for a reason. And whatever that reason may be, I hope I find out soon. I don't like this.
I wish I could truly act on what I say. I wish I could even say how I feel, and act on it. I can't even do that. I'm hopeless in this little, adult body; active on a mind that can't sell. The desire inside me to care still burns, but I can't show it. It's incinerated before it is blown up into the frame of a balloon, lifted off the earth and into an accepting blue sky. I can never show it...
Well I think I'll try to write about what has happened since the last time I posted in December in my next post. It's not going to be the prettiest of all things. But it might be eventful in some ways. Maybe it will be colorful. Maybe it will have flowers and sing from a jukebox. An attic. A cardboard box. A shopping cart. Those things...
On a good note, there was a show last night. I went with my two best friends <33 Scourge was playing. They are cool guys who went to my school. It was a big metal show so there were a bunch of little kids from school, people who went to my school, and other people of familiar faces. It was nice seeing them all, and in a sense, it was kind of awkward. Overall, it was nice and very tiring.
That's all for now.
<3 Michelle
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| Dear Xanga,
Here's a bulletin I posted on myspace. That's it for now. I miss you.
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Blogging. In my xanga.
Seeeeeeriously, reading that old thing brings me back to a lot of
memories. The best thing about it is being able to remember some of the
things I read.
I should start blogging again. Let everything out.
Plus it helps to remember things. Since I have a fear of forgetting
things. Writting things and reading them later will help me to remember.
Diaries are no good .. I would hate to handwrite everything. Typing is way better =)
I hope xanga never gets shut down.
I have the best of my days written and stored on that website.
Three years of my life.
It's the only website that knows me.
Haaaaa I love xanga :P
" I promised the world and a dozen roses " |
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| So this year was sort of disappointing.
I did not care for most of the bands... mostly cos I've already seen the ones I wanted. But I did want to see one or two that I haven't. And then 3 other ones that weren't even there like I thought! I thought IT DIES TODAY was going to be there, along with AFI and Sum41. I really wanted to see IDT and I thought AFI and Sum4 would've been good performances but they weren't even fucking there. Let down.
And the morning suuucked. Well Juan was late picking me up. I was all worried we would be stuck in traffic and a super long line at Seaside Park, but there was no traffic and the line wasn't THAT bad. But I was miserable! Like the people around me were getting on my nerves (not too badly though) and it was getting to be hot and I was hungry and I was just plain annoyed lol. And my back hurted :) So we finally got in, me & Juan went to see Saosin. I saw em at 2004 Warped. They are really good live <3 But the crowd sucked. Then we saw the line up and I was all pissed. Well, let down.
......CONTINUED
All though it was a let down, I still managed to have fun. I got to see Saosin again, on a bigger stage this time. Senses Fail again, they were lovely. Thursday! A little bit of Chiodos and From Autumn to Ashes <3 I also got to see Joan Jett & The Blackheartless! Pink Spiders, NOFX.. NoFX were funny stuff! And on the way out, I heard Plain White T's play that song I liked from them. I wish I got to see more Chiodos but I couldn't miss FATA. We were in the front, too. For SF and Thursday also :) The big difference from last year was not being in the pit and having people surf over me. I wasn't in that mood. And I also didnt' get free stuff. So I walked around in the beginning with Juan <3 Saw people I didn't want to see.. oh well.. I bought two CUTE purses! Spent all my money there. Tried to have a good time, because I dont't think I would've missed Warped Tour even if the line up sucked. Marlene came at 2 so I walked around with her. I'm glad she went. We walked around a lot and had interesting experiences. Like the line of punks whistling at us. haha I loved that. And the guy with the Jack Daniels. And the fight! Oh man a fight broke out right infront of us. These two homie looking dudes. It was crrraazee no one stopped them or anything. We were just watching them haha. Shiiiiit. Anyway, that was crazy moment cos I was on the phone with my Dad and he was being a foo. haha. Pissing me off!! But uhm... it got colder during the end. The day wasn't that hott. It was real nice actually. I got a sunburn on my left shoulder.. I wore a halter top. And everyone else was pretty burnt. Oh and there were no cute guys :) Hardly. Me & Marlene just had good times sitting and chatting. I wanted a monster! But no such luck. Well me & Marlene left during NoFX cos of my DAD... gaaah. But something turned my day around when we were leaving. Some guy gave us a flyer for a show at the Ventura Theatre on the 25th. POISON THE WELL, IT DIES TODAY, SHADOWS FALL! I am soooooo going. STOKED! So yeah, that made my day happy. AND I'm taking my license test that day so I hope I pass and that will make my day! Yayuh.
Overall Wapred Tour wasn't that great. Last year was better. But I enjoyed being there because I wouldn't have missed it for anything. Better luck next year :)
<3 M.
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| Bright Eyes on a Sunday. I'd call it holy. A new religion that will bring you to your knees.
Well I owed this place an entry. So basically I missed the start of summer. I have actually been recording what happened each day so far, so here it is, published online for your enjoyment :)
Tuesday, June 20
Lizett gave me a call and she came over around 12:30 to hang out before she had practice at 3. We watched the Little Mermaid :D and talked after wards, eating tuna. That's all I remember.
Thursday, June 22
The first day of summer that I got to spend time with my two best friends, Marlene and Lizett. We ended up walking LOTS this day. Marlene came over to my house at 11 and from my house we walked to Hueneme High to pick up Lizett from summer school. It was a nice walk. Once we got to the school, we just waited 'til 12. We didn't have any communication with Lizett so that sucked. We ended up not being able to find Liz so me & Marlene decided to walk to Lizett's house. GAH! She wasn't there. Soo we walked to taco bell, bought some food and Lizett found us there. We came back to her place, chilled, relaxed, talked. Later on in the afternoon we ended up walking down Channel Islands road. hahaha we walked a lot. Went to Kmart, the 99cent store, all the way to Melissa's house for a little nice visit. It was very tiring but I felt damn good after that. We were joking around about how many people saw us that day. I <3'd the experience. We walked back towards Lizett's house and decided to get some snacks at Albertsons. Once we got back we ate cookies, rolls, coffee, crackers, popcorn, just a bunch of random shit. It was funny stuff seeing us girls in the kitchen :) We watched Sweet Home Alabama. I love that movie now. I went home around 8. What a day..
Friday June 23
Me & my sis went to the mall and bought my Mom and bro something for their birthday.
Actually, we went more places but I can't remember :D That night we went to the movies on base. It was Silent Hill. It was pretty retarded at the beginning. Then it was like... oooookaay?... then it was like.... WTF. haha. Uhm, yeah, wackass movie. Good thing I didn't pay to see it :) But I did close my eyes a lot. muhaha.
Saturday June 24
OUT & ABOUT. It was Seabee Days that weekend. We wanted to go to the commisary... bad idea! Traffic everywhere with people trying to get on base. We eventually got on base and bought stuff for our party the next day. Around 2ish, me & my sis went to the Seabee Days. Nothing new! We got some food.. a hot dog for me of course :P I love hotdogs. And I bought a nice little strawberry shortcake from drumline. Me & my sis looked at all the pretty classic & muscle cars <333 I want an Impala. Might be a little to classy for my taste though hehe. Yeah, we were prolly there for an hour or so and left. Trying to get there was tricky stuff! A lot of walking, driving, unorderly stuff. haha. I was gonna go to Lizett's house because it was her little sister's birthday. I ended up going to Juan's house
Sunday June 25
My Mom & Bro's bday :) Woke up all early! Ran some arrands and whatnot. It was a hot day. Came home and helped around the house. Cleaned my room. Not a lot of people came which was unexpected but oh well. I was bored. Juan come over for a little bit but left cos he had work. Random people came over... Lizett came over around 3 or 4. We went walking. Haha it was fun talking. And my dog will never have a normal walk ever again. She's crazy ^-^ But yeah, interesting stuff happened. People are wack. After a while we came back to my house and ate and chilled. My brother's friend's family came over. Their long time family friends, too, and my my their youngest boy grew up... A LOT. He's super tall! And he kept giving me the EYE. hahahaha. Oh no. The whole time they kept hinting at me & him hooking up. OMG.. anyways.. we cut the cake etc and I felt so sick after that. Me & Lizett laid in the grass in my front yard. That was so nice. I loved it hehehe. Then people left and Juan's fam came over. Me & him watched Shawn of the Dead. haha funny movie. They left around 11 and that was the day.
Monday June 26
Maaaan it sucked washing so many dishes from the party that morning! Horrible. But around 2 I went over to Lizett's house and hung out for a little. IT WAS RAINING! The sky looked crazy but it was a nice little rain fall in the summer <3 After stuffing my face with her left over hotdogs and what not, we decided to walk to Kmart to pick up her photos. Yeaaah another day of walking everywhere :) It was nice but I ended up getting real tired. We went a new way for both of us. Interesting. Once we got home, we edited her pictures. They were from graduation etc.. aww.. I left around 4. Me & my Dad went driving, but I drove my Mom & Dad's car. IT WAS HORRIBLE! I wanted to cry hahaha. Fuck that car. I am just not use to driving it. Anyways... yeah. That was it.
Tuesday June 27
I just chilled the first part of the day. Around 1:30ish Joyce called and we went to the outlets to get her an application and just to chill. It was funny! That girl just got her license... hehehe. So we got an app, went shopping a little bit for Sam. Ended up not getting anything. Man no one was at the outlets. Hahah then it started raining and Joyce's car was so dirty her windshields were gross and we couldn't see the road! lmao. We went to target where we got starbucks and Joyce did an application. Afterwards we went to walgreens for me to apply but you know what, fuck that place :) I came home and ate dinner. Then me & my dad went driving. OMG it was awesome :) I went all over Ventura and idunno it was a good two and a half hour drive. YAY. And we were looking for a fosters freeze and we found one! YAY YAY! Haven't had that in a long time so it added more to the goodness.
Wednesday and Thursday must've been boring as hell cos I can't remember what I did :P Moving on....
Friday! June 30
GREAT DAY! It was the guys show that I've been waiting for a looong time.
...to be continued. I'm getting lazy :(
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